The Love I Could Never Have

First of all, I would like to apologize for my tardiness in terms of posting an entry in this journal. I'm sure that my loyal readers, particularly the people at the office, are on the edge of their seats in anticipation of my next entry, which is this one, which took me a while to come up with because of these two reasons: 1) I have been extremely busy; 2) It took me a while to figure out what to talk about. Now that I've finally decided on a topic, I'm just writing my heart out with all my skills, if you will.

So, about this entry's title, no, it's not about Rosie. I will repeat what I said before. Rosie is a good friend, and a excellent office mate. As far as I'm concerned, I have no deeper feelings for her, whatsover. This entry is about someone else, someone else you'd never expect me to have feelings for. This is the only woman I can say I really fell in love with in a very, very long time. I know it's immature that I must profess all my feelings this way, but I can't think of any other way that would not incriminate me too much.

Without futher adoo, I would like to introduce her to all of you. Her name is Siony, and she is our company's operations manager. You might say I'm aiming real high, but I'd be a hypocrite if I say that I do not love this woman, because I do. What attracted me to her, is that she is a very mature woman, with a firm grasp of the meaning of her life. She knows where she's been, and she has a very concrete idea of where her life is headed. She is also the type who would never back down in an argument as long as she knows that she's right. In addition to her being a person with principles, she also loving, caring, and sweet. This is the type of woman I've been looking for, all my life.

Now that I've found her, I must let her go. She belongs to someone else. I'm not permitted to name names outside the office, but I know for a fact that the man who loves her, deserves her. He loves her and she loves him. That's all the reason I need to back down. It would be unfair of me to take happines away from her. When a garden grows an extraordinarily beautiful flower, it's just not right to pluck it out for your own selfish reasons. And I'm not the greedy, agitating type. I'm a patient and understanding person. If we were meant to be together, then fate will bring us together. If not, then I guess time will heal all wounds.

I have so much to say about Siony, but I just can't put it into words. I guess that's how powerful love is. It gets us to babble a lot of utter nonsense and leaves us speechless at the end. Anyway, the bottom line is, I will never stop loving her, and if it's our destiny not to be together, then so be it. No matter who I'll love in the future, a piece of my heart will always bleed for her.

Tim has left the building (crying and sobbing desperately).